I see myself, as a tiny spec in the void. A tiny particle of matter. Way, way out in the distance. Like a single grain of sand, immersed in the vast darkness of infinite space. I see myself. As this little physical body. Sitting quietly. Legs crossed and eyes closed. I am so far away. Yet so close and connected.
I slowly extend a hand out into the void. I watch it travel through the blackness of space, moving further and further away. It becomes smaller, and smaller, and smaller, as it moves towards the tiny spec of my physical body. As i make contact, i gently rest this hand on my back, in between my shoulder blades.
Suddenly, i snap back into my physical body. Sitting here on the floor, in this room in meditation. As i sense the space around my body in space, i feel the presence of something behind me. It is moving towards me. I feel a hand gently resting in my middle back, in between my shoulder blades. I feel the presence of divine love. Its warmth and softness embraces me. Very slowly, it starts to move through me. Initially my body feels afraid. It resists and contracts. Clinging to the familiar. Without words it communicates with me;
"It's ok, you are safe, let go and allow me to move through you",
"Let Go, ..... And allow me to move through you".
I come undone. Emotions rise to the surface. Uncontrollable tears roll down my face as the past dissolves away. My body shakes as energy moves through me. I continue to let go and allow myself to merge with its presence. It is the greatest feeling of ecstasy i have ever known. I feel it in every cell of my body. My energy body is thrust upwards, out of my physical body. I am now floating in the vast blackness of infinite space. I am pure consciousness.
I am here. I always have been. I have had your back the whole time. But you have forgotten me. You have been trying so hard to do everything on your own. I know you are tired. I have been observing you. You have been tough out there. Trying so hard to protect yourself. Don't you know? You are me. I am you. We are not separate, but one. You are all of this. The whole of the cosmos lives inside of you. You are whole and complete. You always have been. You have never been lost or forgotten. There are no wrong turns. There are no mistakes. There are no accidents. Every experience on the physical plane has been perfectly timed to bring you to this moment. The eternal present now. Even in your darkest hour i was there, observing you. Reminding you.
Divine loving intelligence has our back at all times. It is not "out there", or unreachable. We do not need to pray to it, this only reinforces our separation from it. It is within us, and all around us at all times. When we become very still and surrender, it will reveal itself to us. It has been there all along. Waiting for us to come home.
Article written by Rachel Berners (Registered Chinese Medicine Practitioner & Cat Lover).