One night this week, i got home from work after a fairly ordinary day in clinic feeling incredibly exhausted.
I literally walked into my apartment, dropped my lap top and bag and crept into bed. As i lay there in total darkness, i put one hand on my lower abdomen, and my other hand gently on my chest. I allowed myself to go deeply inward. I dissolved in bed like this for around half an hour.
Later on this same evening, i decided to do a long meditation. I felt like i was being directed again to go deeply within. At some point during this meditation, i became aware of myself, not as a physical body, but as space, an empty void immersed in total blackness.
The next thing that i become aware of is a tremendous light moving beneath me. It moving upwards towards me. Then something very interesting happened. I felt two huge grids of light, one grid was moving itself upwards in front of me, and another was moving itself upwards behind me. The grids were radiating light energy through me, as they moved. I felt the most incredible sensation of energy being lifted up and out of me. These grids were liberating energy. They moved slowly, both in perfect precision with eachother. As they moved upwards, they finally reached a point in space that is level with the forehead of my physical body. Then the grids stopped. Now i am only aware of the space that my forehead takes up in space. The light is so bright that if it shone into my physical eyes, i would be blinded instantly. Then i feel energy expand from this point in space. Instead of being a single point of focus, i become aware of the space around this point in space. And then i become aware of the space around this space, around this point in space. And so on, until i feel completely connected to all of existence, from this single point in space.
When i got up the next morning, not only did i feel completely energized, but i felt the most incredible feeling of joy through my entire body. It was like all of the cells in my body were vibrating with a new energy. Pure ecstasy! And this feeling is still present as i am writing this blog.
Since this meditation i have been contemplating. How does healing really occur? I know when i have been challenged with physical issues, i often start thinking about "what i need to do", and "who i need to see" for treatment, and how i need to change my diet or environment. And all of these thoughts and ideas are completely valid and create positive change. But the message that this meditation brought to me was;
"Deep level healing is a radical LETTING GO, a complete SURRENDER of Body and Mind".
Meditation helps us to LET GO of ourselves; our body, our mind, our identity, our thoughts and emotions. We completely lose ourselves in the present moment. Instead of being "somebody", we become nobody, instead of being "somewhere", we become nowhere, instead of being in space and time, we move beyond space and time. In this LETTING GO, we merge with something greater. And as we merge with something greater, this DIVINE INTELLIGENCE that created us, is able to move within and around us.
Article by Rachel Berners, (Registered Chinese Medicine Practitioner & Cat Lover).